there are things that i know well
like being proper and kind and
how to cover my body
so no one can see
anything about me
they made it my default
so i tried for a while to comply
and i thought i was happy
because i was making everyone else
happy
turns out, that lifestyle
is not sustainable
so i learned new things
like how to wear red lipstick
and move my body in ways that felt right
and implemented healthy boundaries
sometimes i think about all those sunday's
i sat in pews
how i developed love and friendship
but also expectations, guilt, and fear
it still doesn't make sense
but when sit down
in the middle of the woods
it starts to